Lost (Phoebe's POV)

by Carina

© april 30, 2005

Can’t you hear me crying, won’t you answer my call?

Hold me tight, don’t ever let me fall

I used to think life was nothing but a game

But I was young and carefree then, so how am I to blame?

You turned my whole world upside down

Just one look into your eyes

And it always felt like I was going to drown

I feel that no one will ever know me better than you did

Still I let go off you and your love bit by bit

Sure must’ve broken your heart by the way I treated you

But after all we went through-

I thought there was no other choice

And now here I am desperate for the sound of your voice

How I wish we could make a brand new start-

I swear never again would I break your heart

Would never blame you for my mistakes again

Would only see you for what you are- a kind-hearted man

You showed me what love’s all about

When I now look at the way I threw this precious gift away at last

I want to scream out loud

I know I told you that of all the mistakes in my life you were the worst

That right from the start our love was cursed

But now I see I’m to blame for having lost my belief in you on the way

For deedless watching myself leading astray

I’m ashamed of having been so blinded by hate

I’d love to make everything I did to you undone but now it’s too late

I feel my soul’s slowly crumbling to pieces as you are so far

Just wish you’ve found your peace now wherever you are

It might be an illusion but every night I seem to hear you whispering my name

And when I stare into the darkness I can almost see your familiar tall frame

Memories of times so precious forever in my head-

Can’t recount all the tears of loss they’ve made me shed 

I’m lost completely in darkness without you by my side

I’ve kept running away from myself for so long now

But there doesn’t seem to be any place to hide...